[chinese blood, irish heart] - DEFUNCT: Confronting my inner demons

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Confronting my inner demons

For quite a while now I've had these recurring imaginations in my head where I'm getting injured in hostile situations - be it getting shot as a war photographer, knocked down by a car while saving someone or getting struck by a baton at some protest. I realised early on I wasn't being masochistic or sadist, but probably is a deeper symbolism for my yearning to be feel 'alive' as it were. Bleed a little here and there; to be in a situation where your life is in danger and all that. I think I need more reflection on these thoughts. It can't be healthy.